I would just like to say that it's ok to lose your cool once in awhile. It's ok to take a few hours and put bravery on hold. Put on some really crappy, angst ridden Damian Rice songs, spread Nutella on every morsel of food in your refrigerator and feel REALLY sorry for yourself. And then, the next day you can remember how your heart has been broken open in the most miraculous of ways and you can sit in that beautiful spaciousness that is the Spirit. But for one night, be ok with not being ok. Let that human side show a little bit...she's less likely to come back to haunt you if you just let her breath and cry on a Saturday evening.